the horrors!

[velvetina]

i had a real attack of the horrors a couple of evenings ago; it was such a heart-stoppingly beautiful dusk & I was overcome with this sense of dread that the number of such evenings i shall enjoy is finite, everything's passing.....I have this knowledge with me always of course, it used to keep me awake at night as a child, fearful of death, specifically of losing all that the world and life has to offer.....i think I had a very Greek Hades idea of the Afterlife.

T. said that I suddenly looked stricken..I actually had to sit down! If some one had some smelling salts in their bag, I should have had to have them. All very melodramatic & I am too old now for such goings-on.

Comments

Death

[ceri-mai.livejournal.com]

It's reassuring to know that I'm not the only one! It's been keeping me awake at night recently as well, which hasn't happened since I was a child. Mortality is a terrible curse xxx

Re: Death

[tzuki17.livejournal.com]

no you're certainly not the only one.....we are a pair of emos I think! Summer evenings frequently make me melancholy, & its hard to admit with a straight face, yet its true! i still feel such a poseur for expressing this thought outloud as i am not a Romantic poet!!!

hope you are well otherwise dear x

[clarissasharp.blogspot.com (from livejournal.com)]

I used to have somewhat similar sensations in my teens, whilst lying in the grass, on my back, all alone in the country, with a vividly clear view of the stars and all the immensity the galaxy offers. The utter insignificance of my existence would suddenly occur to me, and I'd find myself gripping the grass and soil at my sides, struck with an inexplicable fear that I might at any moment be flung from this blue orb and launched out into that epic expanse as a mere speck of dust.
(Thank god I live in the city now, and the night skies are not nearly as intimidating...)

[tzuki17.livejournal.com]

I am all over the place at the moment! Tim thinks its my hormones!!!