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feeling unsettled....again
Apr. 2nd, 2009 09:00 pmI wish that I had a clearer idea of a path to follow; certainly i have plenty of fantasies, but nothing that I am really committed to.
It also seems that the further I stray from this 'path', the more difficult it seems to return...everything seems more difficult, & I'm always blaming my age.
I blame my age for my failures: my failure to be as yoga supple as I once was; my failure to seduce men I take a fancy too; my failure to stay up painting all night; my failure to take risks of any kind; my failure to be who I thought I'd grow into...I've run out of time now it seems?
It also seems that the further I stray from this 'path', the more difficult it seems to return...everything seems more difficult, & I'm always blaming my age.
I blame my age for my failures: my failure to be as yoga supple as I once was; my failure to seduce men I take a fancy too; my failure to stay up painting all night; my failure to take risks of any kind; my failure to be who I thought I'd grow into...I've run out of time now it seems?
